Stress

Often we all avoid stress, do not want it a part of our daily lives. Lately, I feel ,however, that I cannot live without it. I have been taking a class by correspondence, and at the beginning they strictly say don't fall behind. I , Crystal Hawker, would not fall behind, I was sure of that!!

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I did really well for the first month, but then...guess what??? I fell behind!!! I could throw every excuse out there on why I didn't stay on top of it, but the mere truth is...I was not motivated, I was lazy and had ample oppurtunities to work on it! Needless to say, my final is today at 4..and I am not prepared what so ever. I have been studying hard the past 2 days...but I can't get through the review without looking at the solutions. I am very nervous, but that's when my first statement of this blog falls into play...

Can I really live without stress? I think I thrive on it, and function better with it! That sounds so demented. I do, like to work under pressure..I admit it! As nervous as I am that I will totally bomb this final, I have enough adrenaline running through my body that I might as well run to Carnduff to write it! haha. Let's hope the process of writing this final goes better than my midterm went.

Let me give you some history of exactly how my midterm went! I have to go to the Carnduff "education complex" (which for those of you who don't know is about a 20 minute drive from Oxbow). I do believe I also left the task of finding a babysitter until last minute, so that added to my (**needed???) stress level. Then I arrive at the school 10 minutes early. (I write all my tests in this little room at the library), so I tell the librarian I am there to write my statistics 120 exam...She has NO idea what I am talking about, and tells me to go to the office. So I head on over there, and the secretary is just as baffled , and just for my luck...the principal (who is in charge of scn courses) has already left. So she calls him and finds it, and sends me to write it. I sit down..and all I have are the formula sheets...I kinda need the questions too!! So I go back..and she has to get the principal to come down, whom still doesn't find it. So they called SIAST in Moose Jaw, and had to get my exam faxed !!! It was total mayhem. I was 1/2 hr late to write it!! and my stress level sky rocketed.

Today, I will be calling ahead of time to ensure they know I am coming and that they actually have my exam. Or maybe I shouldn't...in hopes of adding to my "needed" stress levels.. haha.

After my final I am hoping to unwind by working out at Curves (if I finish before it closes), and then going for wings and drinks with my fiancee Jared, and Kandi and Barrett in Glen Ewen.

Wow that was a long blurb on stress and my final..tee hee. Here is the actual purpose of my blog, to attach some oh pics of my beautiful children!

Dominic will be 3 on April 30th. We are going to have a small thing with just us..Then on May 13th we are having his actual party..have to pencil it in between weddings! What a busy spring! He is such a handsome little gaffer.

I honestly cannot believe how much time has passed, that he is going to be 3, and in just over a month, his sister will be a year..time sure flies!

Paige is such a little sweet heart! You can't help but love her with her beautiful blue eyes..I will have to get a picture of her in her new Columbia jacket, it brings out the blue in her eyes, and is just soo cute!

My sister Amber came down this past weekend "to help me with the kids so I could study"...well I still didn't get much studying done..Oh well thanks anyways darling!

Not a very flattering picture of me..no makeup, a few drinkskies, and outside by the fire..

Of course my lovely fiancee, Jared was out there too. It was quite the nite. He cut his thumb wide open with an exacto knife..and really should have gone for stitches, but didn't.

It was a very fun evening, and I look forward to many more nights this spring and summer of sitting out by the fire with our siblings and friends and enjoying each other's company!